Saturday, March 2, 2013

Sebuah Perjalanan Hati

Out of nowhere I felt my last trip was a journey of some people hearts. After all I have been through, I want to write and share what's in my mind since then.

When we do a journey of heart, we just need to pack one stuff. A heart itself, prepare for whatever may come to it.

Speaking of heart, broken heart is the main reason for people to travel.
Sometimes a journey is  indeed the right time to give considerable space to our heart to get tranquility.
Yet what happen when we travel with our "heart"? Unless we can have an adult conversation to let our heart speak, it will just ruin those hearts. Not to mention it will jack up our"nieuwsgierige aap". *)



Mereka yang sadar atau tidak melakukan ini sebenarnya hanya mencoba memperkuat hati atas sebuah kenyataan yang masih belum bisa diterima. Letting go the one whom you think the best -based on so deep conscious mind so far- is truly not easy! Most of time we think that we are a perfect partner for someone, unfortunately a fate may walk on the opposite direction to our thinking!

When you develop an infatuation for someone, you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for example. Now, in the long run, that's just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation it's just what you've been searching for all these years.
-The Beach-

For those who are finally able to get through this condition will enjoy a moment to feel something incredibly absurd. For those who are still being trapped, they need to learn. Learn to let go. Ikhlas, sebuah kata sederhana yang sangat sulit diterapkan.

Ketika pada akhirnya kita harus mempersiapkan diri menjadi "heartless" sebelum berangkat. Mencoba sekuat tenaga untuk bisa menghadapi apa yang memang seharusnya dihadapi.

Sometimes we have to spend too much time coming up with conclusion that we already knew. Dari awal pun sebenarnya kami sadar kalau hubungan ini tidak akan naik tingkat. Kami hanya mencoba menikmati dan mengulur waktu sampai saat dimana kami bisa menggunakan akal sehat untuk mengakhiri ini. Ketika kami benar-benar selesai. Yes, it's done already. Full stop. No comma. No space. There is no option but done itself. (taken from Life Traveler)

Yesterday I was trying to make it tasteless yet it left me with a piece of regret that should not be exist from the first.

We will never know where life will take us to. Sebuah kenyataan hari itu menyadarkan gue bahwa Tuhan itu baik. Mengingatkan gue sebelum gue terlanjur jatuh. Fall into an illusion of infatuation. Terkadang ingin memutar waktu dan menjadi seorang Director untuk film kehidupan sendiri lalu dengan lantang berteriak "Seharusnya tidak seperti ini!!", tapi yang bisa keluar hanya lirihan "why should I?"

Well, it's a life that has been written down on Lauful Mahfuz. For a thing that you cannot predict, try to accept! Trust Him that there always be blessing in disguise.

Knowing one fact when I try to begin was not a good sign. This last quote is not for what has been finished last year. It's for you. Yes, you who always haunt me lately. I barely have courage to admit. It's just the truth is ugly, isn't it.

"Aku sampai di bagian bahwa aku telah jatuh cinta. namun orang itu hanya mampu kugapai sebatas punggung saja. seseorang yang cuma sanggup kuhayati bayangannya dan tak akan pernah kumiliki keutuhannya. seseorang yang hadir sekelebat bagai bintang jatuh yang lenyap keluar dari bingkai mata sebelum tangan ini sanggup mengejar. seseorang yang hanya bisa kukirimi isyarat sehalus udara, langit, awan, atau hujan. seseorang yang selamanya harus dibiarkan berupa sebentuk punggung karena kalau sampai ia berbalik niscaya hatiku hangus oleh cinta dan siksa." -Hanya Isyarat. Rectoverso-

This post was inspired by my not-a-literally travel buddy, Ricco Suhardian.

*) nieuwsgierige aap : Kepo

1 comment:

  1. aaakkkk... i knew it. i know you'll be okay at the end. keep hanging there ri.. *tumben serius

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